daur bioritma lagi berada di posisi tertinggi.
bersyukur karena semua berada pada tempatnya.
sedikit bosan karena siklus kehidupan terasa monoton.
bekerja. belajar. bersenang-senang.
menyadari kalau gemini selalu butuh kejutan.
masih tetap dengan kebiasaaan aneh membaca koran dari halaman terakhir, makanya horoskop selalu jadi kolom yang pertama dibaca.
tidak selesai-selesai membaca novel yang dibeli bulan lalu. sudah menonton 3 season ‘whose line is it anyway’.
bermain sudoku mega & text twist masih menjadi ritual sebelum tidur.
masih percaya bahwa fungsi otak harus dimaksimalkan karena ketakutan akan dementia kalau sudah tua.
mint tea + anderson cooper 360 = pas!
bermimpi punya program berita harian di CNN seperti anderson cooper.
semakin hari anderson cooper terlihat semakin sexy, ha!.
menyukai tv show “The Moment of Truth” dan akhirnya sangat sebal karena contentnya yang sangat intimidatif.
harus selalu duduk di kursi yang sama setiap harinya ketika subway: baris ke 3, sebelah jendela, dengan kursi menghadap ke depan searah jalannya subway.
menghitung tiang listrik dari bus stop sepanjang jalan pulang ke rumah.
menyadari kalau perilaku obsessive compulsivenya semakin menjadi-jadi.
masih impulsive. masih indecisive.
menggemari makanan vietnam yang rasanya tidak jauh beda dengan makanan a la warteg-warteg indonesia.
3 kali menang lotre, tapi lebih sering kalah.
kebanjiran cinta. jatuh cinta. semakin sering senyam-senyum tanpa alasan.
oh ya! menemukan restoran chinese dengan menu nasi goreng ikan asin. HORE.
Farah Desember 2008:
Quote of the day
“Trying to forget someone you love is as hard as remembering someone you never know..”
so true.. :’(
And.. this is for you, S..
The mementos are puzzling inside my head, i try to piece them together and come up with you, the memory of you, as a result.
i still can feel the warmth of your breath and smell your scent when u were lying
beside me, whispering “I love you..” while your hands encircle me.
it was only 24 hours since we first dated, I have this strong feeling that we’ve
had the connection thousands and thousands years before. we got married, we’re
having two daughters and a son, and a dog named Nazi.
then we woke up in another morning, I made u a cup of coffee and a plate of hainanese chicken rice for breakfast.
“are you gonna leave me? Are we getting divorce?” I asked you.
“no, i’m just going to work…” you answered.
the drugs just never work…
i love u.. i love u… i do.. all the tears rolled from those words. u left with such
a misery of misperceptions. but hey… someday somewhere in new york, we’d
deliver pizzas at days, make love in a refridgerator box at nights, Fill the
crosswords at dusks, we hug and we kiss at dawns.
turning your step back again and fetching me up to the dinner, tobiko and unagi for
today, picking the cigarette from your lips away by my chopsticks. lying on the
car cap, counting stars in the sky above..
“see, that’s the cassiopeia and the other is ophiucus..” you said.
We’re holding on embrace, breathing the kisses, swimming in tears, dancing in the music of laughters…
la.. la.. la.. la vie en rose..
Hold me close and hold me fast
The magic spell you cast
This is La vie en rose..
When you kiss me heaven sighs
And tho I close my eyes
I see La vie en rose..
When you press me to your heart
I’m in a world apart
A world where roses bloom..
And when you speak…angels sing from above
Everyday words seem…to turn into love songs
Give your heart and soul to me
And life will always be
La vie
en rose..
………….
Suddenly,
all the spotlights are turned off.
i hear your murmuring voice but i barely see your face. the long way has
separated us away from the lemon tree, and all i can see is an empty road. i’m
reaching through and hurted by pieces of glasses.
“don’t go there, u’ll get hurt… it’s so dark in here..” I’m trying to warn you, but i
cant even hear my own voice.
i’m feeling your wings’ feather touched my face, but i don’t know what’s it’s
colour.
I feel suffocate.. I lost my breath..
the rainbow has faded, my dream has come to an end..
all i can take is only the fractures of memory.
Im trying to piece them together, all over again..
i need valiums.
oh
God, please…
JOURNEY: The Beginning
So here i am,
on the journey of my life.. again.
looking for happiness, trying to solve the problems, and.. living my life to the fullest. alone.
i left some memories behind, i carry some up in my pocket,
i portray you in my head, though trying to ditch you from my heart..
i was whole before i met you,
so there’s no reason i should be in shattering pieces after u left..
i don’t want to run nor hide.
i wont let myself drowning in my own tears.
i have to be whole again, i have to.
hmmm..
i was going to buy a ticket to the end of this road, curious to see how the story ends.. :p
will there be another chapter of us? will there be a better you?
or, another you? perhaps..
i don’t know which where to go..
i don’t have a map that’d show me directions..
but, i have found the brightest star of my night sky, you it is. 
i may not always feel your presence, i may not always see your shining light..
but i know that you will always be right there when i need,
i know that i always have someone to share the story with,
the bitter ones, the sweet ones..
and.. i know you will guide me to the end of this road..
oh well..
see you at the flip side of the world, silo!
"YATAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA……"
hiro’s impersonation
Laudatoire
Harusnya kau beri aku gelar Cum Laude untuk rasaku,
Magna Cum Laude untuk sabarku,
Summa Cum Laude untuk tulusku,
dan,
Egregia Cum Laude untuk berani ikhlas lupakan kamu.. lupakan kita..
akukamu.
aku, kamu, dan jarak..
jutaan kaki pisahkan aku, kamu..
lelah untuk berteriak aku lelah karena seteru..
aku, kamu, aku, kamu, aku.. kamu..
harusnya aku sadar sedari awal,
kalau tidak pernah akan ada kata KITA..
Candu
saya mau kamu malam ini, sayang..
aliri darah saya dengan sejuta serotonin!
ode to venlafaxine 75 mg
KALA
chandra. warsa. masa.
kamu yang hitung!
satu.. dua.. seratus.. sejuta..
buat pula penanggalan!
bulan. tahun.
bulan-bulanan yang menahun.
akh, percuma!
saya tetap sayang kamu
